ds9 so fucking peak although i do wish i had maths autism rather than mild discalculia it's something that's impossible to communicate to allists, but autist story telling is just better. i think i have covid i'm quite sick ban americans from public life i am losing my fucking mind from time to time, not so often that it's constant, but often enough that it's probably worrying, i suffer bouts of severe debilitating brain fog which last a few days at a time. spain you're our only hope now, you may have given me swine flu when i was there in 2009, but I will forgive you. dommed vorobey on hightower the other day btw, you won't see that on his channel. the thing about heat is it's just one of the best movies i will be leaving the country if they decide to ban vpns it's the perfect combination of me just being actually like possibly brain damaged levels of bad at the game like genuinely making decisions that just confuse me like why am i doing that but somehow not being able to make better decisions, and then inflated by getting genuinely insanely consistently unlucky like im playing spy to farm clips and it's like everyone is just turning around for no reason the instant i go to stab or like them moving in weird ways or whatever just insane unlucky shit like im watching https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MeVHlu713fs and fatmagic has a full demo lodout stock pipes quickie and bottle, like this should be free for him that's arguably the strongest pub loadout (obv stock better than quickie but not by that much). it's weird cos the only people i regularly watch play demo are like high div compies like i watch scarybrocoli's demo gameplay and he's invite hl or some shit, and i watch like habib and like logan or whatever. so i have this impression of like "im shit at demo" because i look at those guys. But then i see a video once in a while a regular tftuber plays demo in a video and i'm like what thefuck is this guy doing he has no idea how to play. like im watching fatmagic play demo and he's just flinging pipes willy nilly not even trying to aim, he's wasting a whole kritz just spamming pipes in a choke where no one's even there and im like "oh wait maybe im better than i thought" cos these guys all of thousands of hours in game like theyr'e supposedly "good" but they get on demo and just suck shit. pl_redwood will become my new de_nuke, just do the same lines over and over hell yea pl_redwood has both destroyed and saved my life 2222 is the standard arbitary number gg ez get fucked mexico standard anti-rent control are so incredibly bad that they have pushed me from neutral to pro rent control. it literally works. really hope the new nanoha is good, but it looks like stikerS 2 don't need vegetable simply drink green drink. solved game I should not have done this finish or fail challenge for the whole season, this is too much anime. Moreover, too much of it is actually good and I can't reasonably drop; this is going to take a lot of time. "things shouldn't be on the floor. Put water on your body every day. sleep in line with the closest star. go outside. eat leaves." i would prefer not to. i need to quit tf2 but i am addicted i feel like a somelier judging these 2k view tf2 clipdumps on yt, notes of yup cup with a finish of mid ah clips soon it will become time to learn supercollider. Look forward to that blog post. i will never play a video game where i have to check my in-game smartphone. I don't even want to look at my phone in real life. I came here to not look at my phone. it occurs to me that raw html was designed for 4:3 monitors, and text is far more readable in that aspect ratio. As it stands in 16:9 (or near enough to it), lines become uncomforably long. i realised one reason i'm always on youtube is to listen to music. I will now listen to music using bandcamp instead, or perhaps soulseek. Useful no-js bandcamp frontend: https://tent.sny.sh/ they should get rid of casual matchmaking but they should not replace it with quickplay, there should be no valve servers. They should rather use steam networking to make it easy to host your own server (like tf2c). Nobody has ever explained why "official servers" were ever necesary (it was because of cosmetics). it seems like age verification laws are coming for every country no matter what. On the one hand this fills me with rage, on the other hand it just pushes me even further from meta meatspace. So in the end it doesn't even effect me very much. yesterday i couldn't sleep for 24 hours today 6 hour "neep" (nap sleep) in the middle of the day, you just never know what's gonna happen next with me. i hate myself for becoming so dependent on logic (software not concept) yesterday I went crazy but I hope not to go crazy again YOUTUBE UNBLOCKED ME WOOOO NO MORE ANUBIS ON INVIDIOUS INSTANCES (bilbo baggins voice) after all why not. Why shouldn't i keep writing every program in shell instead of learning a proper language. baby leftist youtuber self described "gonzo" joining a communist org and then having a crisis realising they don't do anything lmao. puredata is a whole lotta effort for a whole lotta dogshit frankly not worth it. ORCA is so cool but I have nothing to plug it into so what's the point. Maybe i have to buy some hardware maybe that's all i can do. spent most of the day being unable to make music in linux and lowkey missing the comfort of logic. Well i did kinda manage it, but it is shit. for the record I also dislike the counter strike map ok fine i wrote a propper post about hating anubis. This all happened because youtube-local broke forcing me to use invidious instances which use anubis. when the internet is destroyed (sooner than you think) there will hopefully still be nerds preserving the old ways a la xkcd 1782 actually im not sure you can in fact do that any more. Just evil evil software. go-away, a similar program, at least has a non-js challenge as an option. If you must use something use that. It seems you can bypass anubis by spoofing your useragent. anubis is literally malware. It is functionally identical to a crypto miner except that it doesn't actually mine crypto. There is no strong evidence it even stops scrapers, but it does stop users on old or slow hardware. Traditional capchas ask you to solve a task which is easy for a human but hard for a robot. Anubis asks you to solve a problem which is easy for a computer but really hard for a human. To pass an anubis test, you actually prove that you are NOT a human. Backwards design. i strongly identify as a slime i wish totono didn't exist, i'm seeing someone play it as their first vn because they "liked ddlc". You're not going to understand it man. i thought i was gonna be smart and replace my monster addiction with this big premade coffee that comes in a like milk carton, but it's disgusting. I suppose it's back to monster for me. i need to start more strongly identifying as a slime i'll switch to invidious for now but let the record show i am making this decision under duress. I refuse to sign into my google account on this thinkpad!! youtube-local suddenly stopped working im so fucking mad my first attempt at c programming did not go well. project i had in mind is too complex for a beginner. Or well, I could probably figure it out if I bashed my head against a wall for a long enough time, but it would be a lot of bashing. the only fond memories i have of being a teenager are me staying up late at night, enjoying the stupor of mild sleep deprivation, and just f5ing various boards for hours d.c. has crashed? broken? 3 times today and I have no idea what is causing it and I can't fix it without manually restarting the daemon. I do not know how to fix this and it is not nice. if this heat continues imma be doing guerilla stratospheric aerosol injections (joke, do not arrest me) i think structural regex are extremely cool, I understand why it's a good idea now. However, it's too soon for me to learn this. d.c was destroyed, i thought it was hacked but i think it was just a bug. It's all back now. I will become a regex wizard or die trying as far as I understand, there are only 3 real programming languages: forth, lisp, and C. Shell is kind of a language but it's also kind of a bunch of small C programs. Assembly is it's own thing. i am sooo fucking glad I don't care about "amazing digital circus" half of the internet is unusable if you have fingerprinting mitigation because of coudflare i wasn't aware of the degree to which I had become used to stories just not having an ending, until someone pointed it out to me as a reason they don't like anime. did i even mention anywhere, i have been reading the smartphone isekai LNs. No one will believe me but it's good the most obnoxious person you know is going to be really into 地元最高 I think posting twice in the same day borked my rss a little oops wtf did i just post wwww stackoverflow users were so impossibly annoying that it became economically viable to spend trillions building computerised alternative At some point I will set up a shared unix system for my friends to all use. it will not be a "pubnix" because it will not be public access. the so called "ram shortage" isn't real. You literally have enough ram. my desktop has 32gb ram, my thinkpad has 3.5gb. I don't notice the difference 98% of the time. Ram is a scam. I like how they use tatami as a unit of measurement. Everyone knows how big a tatami is. finished yomegami took me forever because it was boring. But with enough specs of goodness that i couldn't in conscience drop. there are abilities i have which you people wouldn't understand i might just drop koiken tbh ive lost interest in it I want to point out that since uninstalling all those remaining X packages I have experienced 0 crashes on neuwm. So I think I was wrong to say the software is unstable, I was just doing it wrong (many such cases) n0's burger takes: -no tall burgers -pickles are good, pickled jalepenos are much better -mustard's gotta be colemans something is interupting the psyschoelectric mechanations of my brain ok i have a plan now. v19686 -> v10608 -> v9093 idk how I'm supposed to follow any of this up i should make an album but i hate music these drugs don't even do anything for me any more that's a lie actually This is all Al-Khwarizmi's fault. This is so depressing I hate numbers. I fucking hate numbers and mathematics and quantification. I don't care about music a part of me wants to make action button sized videos which would cause me much suffering. Even he ended up in hospital after that, and he is much more powerful than I i'm just saving this here “The living organism, in a situation determined by the play of energy on the surface of the globe, ordinarily receives more energy than is necessary for maintaining life; the excess energy (wealth) can be used for the growth of a system (e.g., an organism); if the system can no longer grow, or if the excess cannot be completely absorbed in it's growth, it must necessarily be lost without profit; it must be spent, willingly or not, gloriously or catastrophically.” it's so typical that after 7 years of youtube i get a "career launching" (said with appropriate mimed vomitting) video success, only for it to be copyright nuked from orbit by a japanese media conglomerate. I can't catch a break! Now idk what to do with my life fyi it took 2 days to write and 3 days to edit. you can tell i was getting sick of editing by the end (just with all my videos) as the visuals get less interesting. holy fuck i finally finished that youtube video. I was thinking about oreimo as a segment in a video entitled "bataille baudrillard bishoujo: a philosophy of otaku" but then i just started having thoughts about oreimo's title which I started writing down, and before I realised it I'd started working in points from the bbb video and now we have this nonsense. finally deleted all my redundant xorg leftovers, somehow this actually fixed a few minor bugs I was experiencing. I am not sure how that's possible, I mean obviously something was causing a conflict but how or why is beyond me. I am going to be reading althuser. Maybe this is my chance to actually learn c and just fix it myself but this is not an easy task... it's so annoying because swc is so much better designed than wlroots but it's just annoyingly unstable and niche. Like what I actually want to run is the exact stack i'm currently using but in 3 years time. There is a mouse in my house (i am going to poison it) people who are learning japanese love bragging about their useless autistic hobby like it somehow makes them morally superior A Humans are causing ecological collapse leading to mass extinction accross animals B humans are more likely to be activated to protect "cute" animals (known fact) ∴ humans are doing mass eugenics turning the planet cute nothing non-cute makes it out of the near future we should not say "saved their life" ever because it doesn't make any sense instead it should be "granted them a slower death" or "deferred their death" no one has ever explained to me what is wrong with just using raw ALSA Marxists make the error of still calling capitalism the "Mode Of Production" rather than the code of social relations. ok i switched to this swc stack for the larp but it's actually good now that i've fixed the crashes (mostly). Unironically you should probably use it. "oh i need a linked notes system for some reason" open up vim, type in a file path which exists, then put your cursor over it and press gf. Now use your immagination. when you install obsidian (the note taking program), do they force you to sign a document saying "i hereby promise to incesently shill this dogshit to everyone ad infinitum" i should also replace the battery in my x60 and install alpine on it. or possibly netBSD. also i need to clear out all the old X packages from this computer now that i'm waylandpilled. I get so scared i'm going to accidentally uninstall something important aaa reasonably speaking i should write a blog post about the wayland.fyi stack. however i don't really understand it. this stupid fucking wm crashes all the time but i'm too invested to switch back now. every trip report is like "00:00. took drugs. 01:00. got high" i switched to the wayland.fyi stack, currently using neuwm. If you can't get any of the wsxwm based compositors to accept keybindings that is because the XKB ruleset is hardcoded as "base", which may not know that the super key exists. Go into seat-evdev.c in neuswc and change the line: seat->names.rules = "base"; to seat->names.rules = "evdev"; recompile and it should work. This took me so fucking long to figure out, might submit a patch if i can be bothered because that's stupid. for some reeason i watched "thunderbolts". Easily top 5 worst movies i've ever seen. and i dont even hate capeshit that much. Just genuinely awful movie. amane is the best tenshi souzou reboot might be the best yuzuge hot take. feels real good to have never liked the band geese. it turning out to be a psyop is very unsurprising, did reveal how few people actually listen to the music they supposedly like, because listening to geese would be enough to disuade you from liking them, since their music is so boring. i'm going to start referring to maths and physics as "number salad" see how they like it somehow noa in one night has read multiple manga seen multiple anime AND read at least 1 eroge. Seems a bit farfetched to me.like not physically enough time to do that. It took me some time to appreciate the dialogue in yuzuge. Only coming back to a yuzusoft title after playing other mid moege I can see how their dialogue is a step above the rest. Sasuga. lulutto lilly is actually peam. idk why i avoided hayase until now. Looked too professional so i assumed it was a scam of some kind but it seems actually goodo Found out about 9larp.net. This is so jalain coded wwww as it turns out, porcupines are a kind of rodent. In the 70s french theory milleu, it was trendy to make a big show of saying you had never read X, despite having actually read them to a high level. Similar to kalahari who shoot a wilderbeast and then insist "Oh a stray arrow hit this" so as not to brag. I should adopt this attitude I think. This button retardation has been the most blackpilling experience of my recent life. blue button presser abusive boyfriend: "if you leave me I'll kill myself and it will be your fault" blue button pressers: "red button is the selfish immoral choice, unlike we who are advocating mass suicide" blue button pressers: "my life is so special and i am so important that it's good to force everyone into a death game to save me". "The earth can support 9 billion people" is true in the same way "if you blended every human up into one giant human meatball it would fit in central park" is true. that shit in the earliest line about this only getting updated when the blog gets updated was a lie btw Subahibi is like the capitalist realism of eroge. Like it's good, but please read another book. As an avid VN enjoyer, in the community, there is constant fear of these things called "LARPers". I won't explain it here. My take is LARPers are just a simulacrum produced by the systems of "social" media. They do not exist, and should not concern you. It is quite literally ragebait and if you get off twitter you will rapidly forget they exist. actually maybe like some gohands shit would more accurately fit that meme but whatever i'm saying the show is overanimated ok. Do you remember that part in nanoha s1e1 where they're eating dinner and the scene is suddenly insanely over-animated to an almost grotesque degree? "Yuusha Kei ni Shosu: Choubatsu Yuusha 9004-tai Keimu Kiroku" is like if a whole show looked like that always. this is now actual plaintext my neighbors are trying to use me for suspicious reasons and i have no choice but to allow them to do so! I hate it! arakawa under the bridge is making me want to live under a bridge and go insane! in ep10 of lucky star, on konata's desk is https://vndb.org/v1176 and https://vndb.org/v1392, and a poster of https://vndb.org/c4678 operation: finish them all in full effect (where i clear out my "currently watching" list). Somehow I always end up with loads of shows. medalist is a pretty good show Northernlion israeli cruise and tom scott copaganda videos back to back what is going on. This is my test for something akin to microblogging, it's just a single txt file. It seems like overkill for it to have it's own rss feed or anything like that. I considered using twtxt but I don't think anyone uses that any more, which is a bit of a shame.